When You Don’t Feel God: Faith, Doubt & Intrusive Thoughts Postpartum

There was a point in my postpartum experience where I wasn’t just questioning my thoughts.I was questioning everything.I questioned whether I was really a Christian. Whether I had ever actually been saved. Whether Christianity itself was true. Why God was allowing me to suffer. Why He wasn’t healing me. Why I could open my Bible and feel absolutely nothing.Today we’re talking about Step 5 of The Unafraid Method: ANCHOR.In this episode, I’m sharing one of the deepest parts of my own story and what it looked like when postpartum anxiety and intrusive thoughts started affecting my faith too.We talk about:Religious intrusive thoughts and the fear of committing the unforgivable sinQuestioning whether I was ever really savedWatching The Case for Christ because I was questioning what I believedWondering why God would allow me to suffer instead of healing meReading the Bible and feeling nothingUsing feelings as proof of whether God was closeThe moment I looked in the mirror and said, “God, if You’re real, I need You to do something.”The difference between faith and certaintyHow prayer and Scripture can sometimes become part of certainty-seekingWhat it means to stay anchored when you don’t understand what God is doingWhy being anchored doesn’t mean never questioning, doubting, or feeling afraidOne of the biggest things I had to learn was this:God’s presence is not dependent on my ability to feel it.Being anchored didn’t mean I always felt sure.Sometimes it simply meant continuing to reach for God when I didn’t feel sure at all.Peace After Postpartum officially launches October 5th. If you want to hear more when we open, text PEACE to 404-692-3754.Next up in The Unafraid Method: RECLAIM.